“You want nothing to do with Realization. You seem to want everything to do with bondage, because you fear the implications of Realization, of Truth, of Reality, not merely the implications of death. You fear the loss of egoity and the egoic position, even though it is precisely the condition in which death is guaranteed. And it is what in fact is going to die, and there are no two ways about it. It’s not only going to die a little bit, it’s going to die in every fraction – gross, subtle and causal. All of it will go.
There can be transformations of conditional state in the meantime, but ultimately, all of it goes. Just as in physical death, the gross part goes, there would still be inevitable processes of a subtle and causal nature producing more modes of transformation and so forth. In the midst of which will be the same bewilderment, the same self-contraction, the same defensiveness, the same protection of ignorance and of egoity itself, the same failure to identify the suffering as such, for real, and to identify it as your own activity. And the same fundamental unwillingness, obstinancy, the conviction, somehow or other arrived at, and it somehow seems logical, that it is not desirable to realize Reality, Truth, Real God. Not desirable, because it requires loss of self.
So you are not afraid of death, merely. You are afraid of God. Not in any positive sense. You are afraid to surrender because surrender is the relinquishment of the very thing you are defending. So, even fear of death is dishonest. It’s a kind of misplacement of the reality of what fear is about.”
Svaha 